New Year. Lifetime Resolutions.

I hope you led with love today. Let's get into it. 

Historically, I am one for New Year's resolutions. I love the idea of, much like Lent or Ramadan (I'm not religious, but spiritual), giving up your vices. However, as I have grown older, I find it superficial to "all of a sudden decide" to purge your life of a negative reinforcer that you are in the habit of reinforcing. It's difficult to maintain. That is precisely why I decided to be honest with myself in 2026. While I am no Socrates, Plato, or Aristotle... I understand the beauty of introspective discovery, and the domino effect of being adventurous for others to observe. 

The only thing I held myself accountable for this New Years was to continue this path of self-discovery I stumbled upon. Keep living. Keep learning. Keep experimenting. Keep adapting.

I believe this ideology is present in the sewing project I am highlighting in this post. I will preface this pride speech by saying I did wear this out to a holiday party, but I was still, notably to me, so insecure about the flamboyance of my creation that I kept my coat on the entire time and spent most of my time sitting on the lounge couch... hoping I would get drunk enough to say "fuck it." ... I did not...

As I become more comfortable with sewing (I am still a novice... mind your huffs and puffs... I can and will show you my fashion designer icons...), I wanted to start experimenting with new ideas and methods. I decided to use the patterns I had for a polo and pants to create a stylish onesie. Despite some logistical hiccups I encountered with the finished product... I came, I saw, I adapted, and I conquered. 

My old neighbors, great people, invited me to their holiday party to celebrate in December 2025. I knew immediately... I needed to show up and show out. I had this whole vision of a one-piece that would turn heads... I literally created this outfit for this event, and not a soul truly saw it..

It was an intimate and sensational experience. I met great people, had great drinks, and even got to Kiki with them and their friends afterwards. It was a sensational evening. However, I was in my own head and never revealed the show-stopping outfit I created... I honestly regret not opening up in that way. It wasn't about them, it was about me. I'll unpack that on my next stargazing journey... Maybe not all of my designs are for ME to wear. 🤔

For New Years, I went to an event with family at my mom's abode and wore the polo I made. I truly wasn't even thinking about it, but while getting ready.. I looked.. I pondered.. And, I said fuck it. It was an amazing night, and I had no intention of even bringing up my shirt... but, once again, my mother made it clear why I have been a mother's boy my entire life and broadcasted that I created the shirt I was wearing. It took me by surprise, but also sparked conversations I couldn't have imagined. I valued that in ways I'm sure I should be used to, but probably never will. I enjoy spotlight (I'm a Leo🦁♌️), but feel seen while living a humbled life.

This 2026 transition has brought me realities I saw coming, and realities I am honestly still processing. One thing I know is I feel closer to myself than I have in a long time. I even started composing music again, which is one of my true passions, along with acting and designing.

Honestly, I come from very humble beginnings. I have expressed some of my experiences on social media... you'll know when/if you find it... but, I am way more focused on spreading acceptance, grace, and love. 

That is why, this year, I have decided to discover even more of myself to help others discover more of themselves... it's a life-long process. 

Thank you for reading and please decide to lead with love. 

See you next time. 😉